The last few days, Mason has started to look different, more mature, more like a person. I’m completely mesmerized by him, but at the same time I feel a twinge of sadness, of loss, because something is gone that I will never get back.

I didn’t know the passage of time could feel this rapid. While I am excited by each progression and change, I feel simultaneously sad to see the last phase go. It is a constant state of joy an mourning.  I want to stop time and to be in the future all at once.